Prayer is good!!

I have to start this post by saying "Thank You" to all of you who prayed to help me remember my password for the blog. I never did remember it, but was finally able to set a new one. Thank you all so much I have been losing my mind for weeks. Prayer works!!!

Now to my sweet precious Ethan, mommy is so sorrow I haven't been on in so long. If you were here and getting to know me you would better understand that mommy can be a little scatter brained at times. All is well now and I can finally empty my soul of the words and emotions that have been cluttered there for these long weeks.

I will have to back track to fill in the blanks as I go through this post. I want to start with the things that are freshest in my mind. This past Sunday I sat down in the pew and opened my bulletin to see the topic of Sam's sermon for the day. I immediately started looking for the nearest box of kleenex. The sermon was about Jesus' resurrections. This particular sermon was about Jesus' interceding during a young man's funeral and bringing him back to life. Jesus was passing by the funeral procession and was overcome with compassion for the grieving mother, so he stopped the procession and gave the son back to his mother. Now there was no mention of whether the woman was a Christian or if she even knew who God was, so there I sit in God's house asking questions I knew I really had no right to ask. How much does a mother have to grieve to get God's attention? How does he choose which person will have their pain undone? Why would he not grant this miracle to a believer such as myself , but to a possible non-believer? By the end of the sermon my heart was heavy. I have know right to question. One day I will be able to ask my heavenly father why, but I suppose when that day comes I will be in such awe that the questions will be forgotten. I'm just glad in all of my uncertainity and my search for answers that God is still the one I am asking. He is my saviour, my father and my friend. He will not push me away , but instead pulls me closer and tells my heart not to fear, not to weep, not to doubt, not to grow weary of this world. You'll be here soon he says, just not yet. Be patient and share my love for you with others.
I could go on and on of God's grace and glory. I will end for tonight, but I am anxious to continue my journey with all of you. Good night Ethan, I love you!!